abt anxiety, leaving & details never noticed

from love & joy, missing & forgetting people 

the problems and silent struggles in life

fantasy, dystopia or thrilling stories

… , poems & sentences in books / songs that inspired me & help me get through life

⊹ ࣪ ˖ I sometimes wish this moment could last forever ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Our Secret Diary ~

⋆˚࿔  We all have a story to tell - wether we whisper it or yell. ⋆˚࿔

⊹ ࣪ ˖ You tell her that she's beautiful, She laughs and asks you how, When there's a crack on her front tooth, And there's a crease between her brow. Where is all the beauty, in her slightly-too-big nose. In the freckles on her cheeks, And how her hair takes years to grow, And you wonder where she learnt, That beauty lies upon your skin, So that she thinks it doesn't cover, Everything she holds within, Its very definition, Is "pleasing to the sense or mind", But she's let them change the way, She thinks her beauty is defined, It breaks your heart to know her mirror, Is how she estimates her worth, And not the lives she's made much better, By simply being on this earth. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~e.h.~

⋆˚࿔ Her eyes are blue. Yours are brown. Hers represents the ocean. Yours represents the ground. You've always hated your eyes And wished that they were blue. But your eyes have a tint of gold. So rare it must not be true. So yes her eyes are blue. And yes your eyes are brown. But your eyes hold the riches That are buried in the ground. Her eyes carry storms And rage like the sea. Your eyes carry earthquakes That bring mountains to their knees. Maybe her eyes are blue But your eyes reign queen. Because they hold the purest riches The world has ever seen ⋆˚࿔

~ Nadia ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ Unless someone like you cares a whole awful lot, nothing is going to get better. It's not.⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ The Lorax, Dr. Seuss ~

⋆˚࿔ If life is unfair, why do we struggle? There‘s no place I have to go. There’s nothing I really want. There’s none I have to be with. Until I met you amidst a snowstorm of love. ⋆˚࿔

~ Amidst a snowstorm of love ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ The more I think about things, the less I understand and the more I‘m overwhelmed by the anxiety and fear that I am alone and different from everybody else. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ No longer human ~

⋆˚࿔ I burn, I fade, I become a silent star, that turns into smoke in your sky … ⋆˚࿔

~ Parnia Abassi ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ It will be fine. In a few hours, you‘ll be writing about this in your journal because it will be the past instead of the now and everything will be fine. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Salahudin, All my rage ~

⋆˚࿔ There‘s no way to be a poet. You can‘t choose it because it chooses you. Maybe your soul refracts the universe in all its complex beauty and you are a shard of light in its great hallway of mirrors. The universe calls and compels you to write poetry because with every ounce of its being, it yearns to know itself through you. ⋆˚࿔

~ Poemsia ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ If the mood‘s right, we‘ll talk all night. It might be a road to nowhere but it‘s alright. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Wallows, she‘s an actress ~

⋆˚࿔ Do you think what sparked between us was love - or just another beautiful trick of the light? I was your April fool - just three months shy of a year with you. Arms open and waiting, waiting for the seaside promise of summer, never once doupting it would come. ⋆˚࿔

~ Lang Leav ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ I cared when I met you twice a week. I cared what food you liked. I cared what kind of girl you were. And because I cared, I said what I didn’t really mean. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ The best day of my life ~

⋆˚࿔ Sometimes happiness arrives one night too late. ⋆˚࿔

~ Schoolgirl ~

⋆˚࿔ "Apricity" - the warmth of the sun in winter ⋆˚࿔

⊹ ࣪ ˖ She folded her life like origami, made what was large into something small, bending and creasing her edges, until she filled almost no room at all. She‘d learnt to always say sorry , that she was a burden for taking up space, and so into herself she was folded, locked in her own suffocating embrace.

…

As her eyes took in all of the beauty of a world which she‘d lived life deprived, she learnt there’s no need to say sorry, taking up space simply means you‘re alive. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ e.h ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ For everything you lose there is a replacement. But for Allah, if you lose Him, there is none. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

⋆˚࿔ Perhaps the reason this night looks so beautiful is not because of the stars or lights, but us.⋆˚࿔

⊹ ࣪ ˖ The ones who are afraid of hights don‘t trust themselves enough not to jump. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Michael Faudet ~

⋆˚࿔ She speaks to me fondly of passions and talents, guitars and stars, then stops short and apologizes for speaking at all. ⋆˚࿔

~ Nikita Gill ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ It was so easy falling into you again, like losing my place in a book and then retracing my steps back to the past, to find the part in the story I left off. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Lang Leav ~

⋆˚࿔ I will forever be a hopeless romantic, and not just with people, but with places, things, songs, animals. I place my love into something electric and soft, leaving my heart open like a rose to the beauty. ⋆˚࿔

~ Cristopher Poindexter ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ "onism" - awareness of how little of the world you will experience ⊹ ࣪ ˖

⋆˚࿔ For I was moving in a circle, not a line as I had thought, the steps I took away from you, were taking me towards. ⋆˚࿔

~ Lang Leav ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ What happens after you feel everything there is to feel? Somehow, there is a sense of comfort of knowing nothing will ever hit me quite as much again. Nothing will ever be as beautiful, but neither will anything hurt as much. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Lang Leav ~

⋆˚࿔ "Jügen" - a profound mysterious sense of the beauty of the universe that triggers a deep emotional response ⋆˚࿔

⊹ ࣪ ˖ "Empaths" - Those of us who feel everything too deeply. The overthinkers. The ones whose hearts are wired to notice every shift in tone. Every delayed response. The ones who read entire stories in a single word text. Who replay conversations looking for hidden meanings. Who love so carefully because they‘re terrified of getting it wrong. Their peace independ on other‘s moods. What looks like neediness from the outside, is really just fear wearing a dim different mask, fear of loss, of abondonment. Fear of giving too much and still ending up alone. They love with an intensity most people can’t understand. They remember the little things, notice the unsaid, feel the forgotten. They just need someone patient enough to understand that their extra care comes from extra scars. They‘ve been hurt before because someone once tought them that love leaves when things get hard. And they‘re still learning that not everyone walks away. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

⋆˚࿔ The elder daughter loves her family, but prefers to be alone. She is kind but little things make her angry. She has a childish heart but many responsibilities. She has trust issues but tells everything when she's comfortable, She takes care of everyone but when it's her turn everyone get blind. She loves her comfort zone but wants to be a successful and independent girl who doesn't need anyone. She hates when her parents fight but tries to understand both sides of their perspective. She solves everyone's problem but when she get into any problem she runs to god. She loves her siblings but acts tough with them. ⋆˚࿔

⊹ ࣪ ˖ If it stays, it is love. If it ends, it's a love story. And if it never begins, it is poetry. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

⋆˚࿔ Breathe, darling. This is just a chapter. It‘s not your whole story. ⋆˚࿔

~ S.C. Lourie ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ Look at you comforting others with the words you wish to hear. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

⋆˚࿔ Wind reflects INFP‘s gentle yet powerful idealism and adaptability. Like wind, INFP‘s can be soft or forceful, are often unseen but deeply felt, and bring change wherever they go. ⋆˚࿔

⊹ ࣪ ˖ Moonchild don’t cry, when moon rise it’s your time. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

⋆˚࿔ But is it even worth it, losing yourself to win someone‘s heart? ⋆˚࿔

~ Rithrik Singh ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ In the end we‘ll all become stories. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Margaret Atwood ~

⋆˚࿔  Meeting you was like listening to a song for the first time and knowing it would be my favorite. ⋆˚࿔

⊹ ࣪ ˖ She was everything real in a world of make-believe. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Atticus ~

⋆˚࿔  Photos are the only way to hold on to what you knew. Because the moments they show never change, when people in them do. ⋆˚࿔

⊹ ࣪ ˖ انه عليم بذات الصدور ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ القرآن الكريم ~

⋆˚࿔ Gather ye rosebuds while ye may. Old time is still a flying. And this same flower that smiles today, tomorrow will be dying. ⋆˚࿔

⊹ ࣪ ˖ The rain is speaking quietly. You can sleep now. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

⋆˚࿔  لا يكلف الله نفسًا الا وسعها ⋆˚࿔

~ القرآن الكريم ~ 

⊹ ࣪ ˖ Fremde Erde ist nur fremd, weil der Fremde sie nicht kennt. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Pocahontas ~

⋆˚࿔ We are dreaming of tomorrow and tomorrow isn‘t coming, we are dreaming of a glory that we don‘t really want. We are dreaming of a new day, when the new day‘s here already, we are running from a battle, when it‘s one that must be fought. ⋆˚࿔

~ Todd, Dead Poets Society ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ Die Natur bewahren bedeutet unsere Identität bewahren: alles Schöne und Freie an uns, das wir in die Zukunft mitnehmen wollen. Wenn wir diesen verletzlichen Teil unserer selbst nicht verteidigen, bleiben uns nur Hologramm - Bilder unserer schlimmsten Triebe, Roboter, die unsere Albträume verkörpern, und wir driften langsam in eine Wüste von biblischen Dimensionen ab : ein Gebiet der Einsamkeit und Rohheit. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ die zweite Schöpfung ~

⋆˚࿔ If only I knew, we‘d say goodbye, I wouldn‘t have loved you this much. ⋆˚࿔

~ JKON ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ Weißt du, wenn es nicht geklappt hat, war es nicht die Liebe deines Lebens. Es war die Liebe eines Moments, einer Zeit, in der du sehr geliebt hast, so viel mehr als davor. Aber die Liebe deines Lebens, die würde nicht gehen. Trauern kannst du, aber eben nicht um das, was es nicht war. ⊹ ࣪ ˖  

⋆˚࿔ Dead people receive more flowers than living ones because regret is stronger than gratitude. ⋆˚࿔

~ Anne Frank ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ Goodbyes make my throat hurt - I need more hellos. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Charlie Brown ~

⋆˚࿔  If good things lasted forever, would we appreciate how precious they are? ⋆˚࿔

~ Hobbes ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ Ein ganzes Gehirn voller Licht. Ein Bewusstsein möglicherweise größer als die zu bestaunende Welt. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ 60 Tage liegen ~

⋆˚࿔  How happy I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard. ⋆˚࿔

⊹ ࣪ ˖ You may not know the reason why for a time I wasn‘t I. There was a man that came and went, on him every breath was spent. I‘m sorry - I forgot all else, it was the most I ever felt. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Lang Leav ~

⋆˚࿔  Magic tumbled from her pretty lips and when she spoke the language of the universe - the stars sighed in unison. ⋆˚࿔

~ Michael Faudet ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ After all, our lives are a living work of art. Shouldn‘t we be allowed to shape it in any way we choose? ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Lang Leav ~

⋆˚࿔  If you want to know his heart, pay close attention to what angers him. If you want to know his mind, listen for the words that linger in his silence. If you want to know his soul, look at where his eyes are when you catch him smiling. ⋆˚࿔

~ Lang Leav ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ My heart still kept - where it was left - if ever he were - to ask it. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Lang Leav ~

⋆˚࿔  "Biblichor" - the comforting smell of old books. ⋆˚࿔

⊹ ࣪ ˖ Diese Welt ist nur eine Leinwand für unsere Fantasie. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Henry David Thorau ~

⋆˚࿔ Every time I see my name, I hear it in your voice. ⋆˚࿔

~ Lang Leav ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Edgar Allan Poe ~

⋆˚࿔ But we were a maybe and never a must, when it should have been us. ⋆˚࿔

~ Lang Leav ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ I know you have seen things you wish you hadn‘t. You have done things you wish you could take back. And you wonder why you were thrown into this thick of all - why you had to suffer the way you did. And as you are sitting there alone and hurting, I wish I could put a pen in your hand and gently remind you how the world has given you poetry and now you must give it back. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Lang Leav ~

⋆˚࿔  I know that you don’t owe me and I shouldn‘t ask for more. I shouldn‘t feel so let down, all the times when you don’t call. What I feel - I shouldn’t show you, so when you‘re around I won‘t. I know I‘ve no right to feel it, but that doesn‘t mean I don‘t. ⋆˚࿔

~ Lang Leav ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ Mit einer Dose Sprühsahne durchs Erdbeerfeld. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

⋆˚࿔  Wenn du zwei Menschen zur gleichen Zeit liebst, dann wähle den zweiten. Denn wenn du den ersten wirklich lieben würdest, hättest du dich nie in den zweiten verliebt. ⋆˚࿔

~ Johnny Depp ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ Depression isn‘t simply a bad thing. There needs to be depression in order to see the light. If there‘s only light. you don’t know what‘s more joyful. So there needs to be depression at least once in order to know what you like and how to recover. The deeper the depression, the more definite the light. There definitely is a light. So I think it’s really important to use depression as your own weapon. Depending on how you overcome and use that, depression will influence your life and your future. No one knows. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Han (skz) ~

⋆˚࿔ If we are lost, God is like water, finding the unknowable path when we cannot. ⋆˚࿔

~ All my rage ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ No matter how much we lost, or however badly we were treated, the fact is we are still human. All we can do is keep on going with our lives. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Tokue, Sweet Bean Paste ~

⋆˚࿔  In einem Wald hört man einen umfallenden Baum lauter als das stetige Wachsen der Bäume rings herum. ⋆˚࿔

~ Hajer ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ Man erinnert sich nicht an die Tage, man erinnert sich an die Augenblicke. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Cesare Pavese ~

⋆˚࿔ It doesn‘t matter once again I can endure by looking at you. ⋆˚࿔

~ Hanjisung (skz) ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ They were not kittens, these two. They were small, careful birds, chirping in a language only they knew. A language of pain and memory. But they were speaking nonetheless. Speaking when I thought Salahudin might always be silent. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ All my rage ~

⋆˚࿔ I bite back a laugh. I know this moment of happiness will trickle by like sand in an hourglass, but I want to make each second count. I want to keep the pain at bay for a bit more. ⋆˚࿔

~ As long as the lemon trees grow ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ Please just smile next to me like you are now farther than tomorrow, longer than forever. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Neverending story, skz ~

⋆˚࿔ When things get hard, stop for a while, look back and see how far you‘ve come. Don’t forget how rewarding it is. You are the most beautiful flower, more than anyone else in this world. ⋆˚࿔

~ Taehyung ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ Living without passion is like being dead. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Jungkook (bts) ~

⋆˚࿔ I was in bed, I tried to sleep. I held my breath, I was too weak. I fell into your open arms. You‘ll break my heart, take it too far. But I don’t care, this isn‘t fair. ⋆˚࿔

~ Prairies, bwu ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ Does my dream have to be success? Can’t it be a person? ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Nam Do San, Slice of life ~

⋆˚࿔  I understand. In the past, you got hatred to push you to accomplish your goals. But from now on, try to use love as the drive force to live, alright? ⋆˚࿔

~ Switch on ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ Silence is always harder than words. We sometimes say more things in silence than with fancy words. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ It’s okay not to be okay ~

⋆˚࿔  Put down the burden already. It’s not your burden to carry. No one can live your life for you. ⋆˚࿔

~ Twinkling Watermelon ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ how is it so easy for you to be kind to people? he asked - milk and honey dripped from my lips as i answered: cause people have not been kind to me ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Milk & Honey, Rupi Kaur ~

⋆˚࿔  she was a rose in the hands of those who had no intention of keeping her ⋆˚࿔

~ Milk & Honey, Rupi Kaur ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ Yes we are living and dying at the same time. But right now it’s alright to open your eyes. Because like any movie, like any dialougue, the whole world is blue under the moonlight. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ 4 o‘clock, RM&V ~

⋆˚࿔  In life, timing is always terrible. And I always ran away. ⋆˚࿔

~ fight for my way ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ trying to convince myself i am allowed to take up space is like writing with my left hand when i was born to use my right ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Milk & Honey, Rupi Kaur ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ It‘s easy for you since you‘ll forget about me and live on, but I have to stay here by myself, repeating the memories again. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ W two worlds ~

⋆˚࿔  Nichts zu empfinden war besser als diese unerträgliche Angst. ⋆˚࿔

~ Jonah, All In ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ You can’t skip a chapter, that’s not how life works. You have to read every line, meet every character. You won‘t enjoy all of it. Some chapters will make you cry for weeks. You will read things you don’t want to read, you will have moments when you don‘t want the pages to end. But you have to keep going. Stories keep the world revolving. Live yours, don’t miss out. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

⋆˚࿔ Days when you hate that you‘re you. Days when you wanna disappear. Let’s make a door into your heart. If you open that door go inside. This place will be waiting for you. It’s ok to believe, it‘ll comfort you. This Magic Shop. ⋆˚࿔

~ Bts, Magic Shop ~

⋆˚࿔  the thing about writing is i can't tell if it's healing or destroying me ⋆˚࿔

~ Milk & Honey, Rupi Kaur ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ That was her magic, she could still see the sunset, even on those darkest days. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ atticus ~

⋆˚࿔ Sterben, das hatte ich gelernt, war kein Mannschaftssport. Es war ein einsames Unterfangen. Alle, die ich liebte, standen am Ufer, während ich allein in einem Boot saß, das sich langsam von der Küste entfernte und niemand konnte etwas dagegen tun. Sie konnten nur dabei zusehen. ⋆˚࿔

~ Jonah, All In ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ Oh, it would be so easy to fall in love, I think wistfully. So easy. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~Salama, As long as the lemon trees grow~

⋆˚࿔ I do see you, I want to say. I do. But not all of you. What don‘t I see Noor? What are you hiding? ⋆˚࿔

~ Salahudin, All my rage ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ People see what they want to. I‘m sick of hoping that they‘ll see me. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Noor, All my rage ~

⋆˚࿔ How we can skip from one emotion to the other like a well-coordinated dance, I‘ll never know. ⋆˚࿔

~ As long as the lemon trees grow ~

⊹ ࣪ ˖ In your life, you would meet about 292 million people. So the odds that two people met is 0.00049 percent. It‘s so faint. But I met you. It probably took me all the luck I ever had. ⊹ ࣪ ˖

~ Lucky with you ~

⋆˚࿔ Now is a good time for leaf-viewing. ⋆˚࿔

~ Tokue, Sweet Bean Paste ~

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